Keeping in touch

A friend of mine that I was close to for a while in my life just had a baby and I've very happy for her. She's going to be a wonderful mother - that's one lucky baby.

But the baby brings some really sad feelings for me. I haven't kept in touch with my friend like I should have. In fact, I've always been terrible at keeping in touch with people. That's not an excuse, but more objective fact.

The last time I spoke with my friend, it was two days before she found out she was pregnant. She was 8 1/2 months along the next time I spoke to her, and now she's given birth since our last conversation. I'm kicking myself for being so absent in a friend's life.

She has a million friends -- she's one of those people who makes people feel good about themselves, and she's very outgoing -- so she doesn't need me to be in her life for support or anything like that. I should just be there for a friend because that's what friends do.

I've moved around a lot in the past and my friends are scattered around the world. It can be difficult to keep in touch. I hope this lesson stays in my heart and mind so I can be a better friend in the future.